About 4months ago I was diagnosed with depression and put on meds as well as seeing a councillor. Instead of getting better though I have been feeling much worse to the point that I now feel I cant go out in public without my Fiance. I know that sounds soooo silly but its like he is my security blanket and I cant face the world without him.
I've also been shutting people out for the last few weeks. Just when I was starting to get a great group of friends which is something I havent really had since primary school. I'm now pushing them away. I'm not meaning to push people away and it isnt something I feel I have control over so its not like I can just stop.
To be honest with you I'm not the sort of person who likes staying home because it makes me feel trapped but the last few weeks I dont want to venture out that much and if I do go anywhere it cant be without my Fiance because I feel too paranoid to go anywhere without him. I wish that I didnt feel like this but I do so I need to work out whats going on and why I feel this way.

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I'm Mummy to 4 gorgeous kids who are the light of my life. Amelia who is 7 is my little Fairy girl who I'm very proud to say is not only my daughter, but my bestfriend. Joshua is 4years old and is Mummys little Lion boy. He is such a cheeky little boy who makes me contantly laugh with being such a chariter. I've recently brought fraternal twins into this wonderful world of ours. Kaiden and Hollie who are so different from each other. Kaiden is laid back and seems to like to take it easy where as his sister Hollie is a little Princess and may only be a month old, but already loves to get her own way. I share my life, a house and a bed with my amazing Fiance Chris who I plan on marrying in August of this year. I can't wait to be his wife and he my husband.