Mother In Black

Today was my very first session wiith Lindy my councillor. Sitting in the waiting room I was pretty nervous as I had no idea what to expect and I wasn't sure of what I was going to tell her or how I was going to tell her. Plus I was a little scared of what she might end up digging up that has been affecting me for so long.
Lindy put me right at ease by asking me questions and giving a heck of a lot of compliments by telling me that I'm a beautiful young lady and a treasure that she would be proud to call me her daughter.
I was asked to tell her all about my 4 amazing kids so I told her every detail from the time they were all concieved right up until today as thats what she wanted to know.
I was also asked to speak about Chris and explain why I want to be in a relationship with him and why I believe he makes me happy. Lindy told me that she can tell just by looking at my eyes light up when I talk of Chris that I am head over heels in love with him and he must be a pretty special guy. I have to agree totally with Lindy on that one.
We spoke about Chris and my upcoming wedding and all about the excitment and nerves leading up to that big day. I'm only a little nervous as I want everything to go smoothly, but my instinct tells me there will be something to thrwo a spanner in the works. Fingers crossed I'm wrong though.
We also spoke about my childhood and how I feel about what happened to me by my uncle when I was very young as I thought that maybe part of my depression stems back to that happening because as I said to Lindy I was once a very outgoing little girl, but then all of a sudden I shut down and put walls up to block people out.
We also spoke about a few other things, but they WONT be mentioned as that is a private matter that I plan on just keeping to myself. Oh except for Chris because I tell him everything.