Mother In Black

Chris and I have pretty much organised everything for our wedding in October.
We went ring shopping the other day and found 2 very gorgeous rings. Mine matches my engagment ring and I couldn't be happier with it. I'm not too sure what Chris' looks like as I had left the store by the time he had chosen which one he wanted out of the 6 that he was considering.

Apart from asking Dad if we can use his car for the wedding I'm pretty sure we have everything and the only thing to go wrong so far is my garter showing up yesterday which is supposed to be personalise with "Cindy-Rose & Christopher 10th October 2010" but instead it says "Cindy-Rose & Chirstopher 10th October 2010" so we are going to get it remade.

Today was my very first session wiith Lindy my councillor. Sitting in the waiting room I was pretty nervous as I had no idea what to expect and I wasn't sure of what I was going to tell her or how I was going to tell her. Plus I was a little scared of what she might end up digging up that has been affecting me for so long.
Lindy put me right at ease by asking me questions and giving a heck of a lot of compliments by telling me that I'm a beautiful young lady and a treasure that she would be proud to call me her daughter.
I was asked to tell her all about my 4 amazing kids so I told her every detail from the time they were all concieved right up until today as thats what she wanted to know.
I was also asked to speak about Chris and explain why I want to be in a relationship with him and why I believe he makes me happy. Lindy told me that she can tell just by looking at my eyes light up when I talk of Chris that I am head over heels in love with him and he must be a pretty special guy. I have to agree totally with Lindy on that one.
We spoke about Chris and my upcoming wedding and all about the excitment and nerves leading up to that big day. I'm only a little nervous as I want everything to go smoothly, but my instinct tells me there will be something to thrwo a spanner in the works. Fingers crossed I'm wrong though.
We also spoke about my childhood and how I feel about what happened to me by my uncle when I was very young as I thought that maybe part of my depression stems back to that happening because as I said to Lindy I was once a very outgoing little girl, but then all of a sudden I shut down and put walls up to block people out.
We also spoke about a few other things, but they WONT be mentioned as that is a private matter that I plan on just keeping to myself. Oh except for Chris because I tell him everything.

October 10th of this year is the day Chris and I become husband and wife. I'm excited, nervous, scared and have so many pictures of how I want our day to turn out going through my head.
So far about 20 people have been invited and majority have said yes including old primary school friends of mine who I invited as they mean something to me, but to be honest I didn't think I meant very much to them so was very shocked to see that they were very happy to be invited and be a part of Chris and my big day.
As of today there is 98days until our wedding and we haven't organised a single thing other than our celebrant who is more than happy to marry us.
Chris is working all this weekend and has asked me to make a list of things that we need to do for our wedding and also to research things online when I get a spare minute. Monday will be Chris's day off work so we will be getting stuck into organising our wedding together which I can't wait for.
So far I have looked up dresses to see what sort I might like even though I have already found one I love, but I just wanted to make sure it is the one for me. I've also looked up restaurants in our area and found maybe a few that would be nice as we wont be having an actual reception and instead are having a nice casual sit down meal with all our guests at the restuarant we choose to dine in for the night.
I've looked up music for our day and found a lot of romantic lovey dovey songs that I love so will have to have a CD out of them.

I had better get back to researching as there is still a lot to do and so little time to do it in with 4 kids. Thank you for reading and I will update again soon.