After Chris and I became serious in our relationship and had Joshua who of course took on Chris' surname of LIDDIARD. I have thought, discussed with people and many times researched changing my eldest daughter Amelia's surname who shares my surname of GRASSICK to LIDDIARD.
Amelia never took on her own fathers name of DAY due to he and I being too rocky in our relationship at the time of Amelia's birth. I also didn't like the sound of my daughters name being AMELIA DAY because to me it sounded like some sort of celebration instead of a name for my little girl to carry.
I now have 3 kids to Chris who of course all carry his surname and part of me very much wants to change Amelia's name to match her siblings, but then another part of me feels guilty about changing her name to another mans name that biologically isn't her Daddy. I know that he has been there since she was just a few years old and has been really great with her especially recently, but it just feels strange that I was never willing to give her the name of the guy that helped to create her but have no issue giving her another guys name.
I don't expect comments to this blog as it was more just me venting to get it off my mind.
I opened my wallet and found it empty, reached into my pocket and found few coins, searched my heart and found you. Then I realized how rich I am!"
"It's not about how he made you cry, it's about how he made you smile again."
Here's my love, take it. Here's my soul, use it. Here's my heart, don't break it. Here's my hand, hold it and together we will make it forever."
"Being in love is what makes working all week bearable. It makes cruising with your windows rolled down feel like you're riding in a convertible. It makes you dance to the rythm of the copy machine and makes Friday night really feel like THE WEEKEND." :)
"You're not one of the reasons why life is worth living, not one of the reasons why I'm happy all day long, neither why I'll never feel alone - you'll never be one of the reasons, because you'll always be the only reason ...." ♥
"Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone, but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment."
You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?
You never really live until you find someone worth dying for...
Even though at times I may NOT show that I love, care and cherish you. Please DON'T ever doubt that I do. I love you more than anything and I know that you love me otherwise you wouldn't stick around and put up with all the crap I have been giving you lately.
I truely am sorry for the way that I am. I honestly am telling you the truth when I say I feel that I have no control over these out bursts that I have been having.
I love you my sweet Honey Bunny and appreciat you more than you could possibly imagine and even though I may not show it to you all the time doesn't mean it's not true.
MMMMMWAHHH I love you my future husband.
When I first found out that I was expecting twins I researched the internet to see what other womans experiences were like whilst carrying their babies. A lot of the things I read I thought would NEVER happen to me, but boy was I wrong....Once I reached 20weeks pregnant my energy levels were basically non existant, I may as well have super glued a water bottle to my hand as I was always having to drink drink drink and had a constant thirst which the Doctors never ended up finding out what exactly caused that, but apparently it's common in a multiple pregnancy.
Don't get me wrong carrying the twins inside of me had a lot of joys especially when they started to kick and move around which felt weird coming from all over my stomach, but in a good way.
We nicnamed our twinnies APPLE and BANANA which we came up with when the Doctor and ultrasound people would refer to them as TWIN A and TWIN B. I was convinced that Apple was going to be a GIRL because of being so laid back in the womb and looking like they didn't have a care in the world. Banana I thought would end up being a BOY because whatever touched my stoamch whether it be the ultrasound prob, my hand running across my belly or me what ever happened to touh my belly Banana would give it a good hard boot as if it were annoying him/her so I was convinced that Banana would end up being a boy.
I remember my 14week ultrasound as soon as the ultrasound prob ran over the top of Banana inside my belly he/she would arche their back and kept attempting to kick it away. It was so cute to watch on the screen.
Carrying our Twinnies inside of me was an adventure and had so many good points, but also had a lot of hard points along the way like when I reached 25weeks and onward I found that every time I stood my my feet for more than 15minutes at a time I would all of a sudden get really dizzy and feel like I was about to pass out. By 30weeks I was more of less house bound as my legs couldn't tollerate the weight of my belly for very long and the dizzyness had gotten worse for me when I was on my feet. I remember at about 32weeks I had had enough of being stuck at home so we ventured into Frankston when I tried my hardest to walk around and even managed to walk from one end of the shopping centre to the other, but once I reached the other end of the shopping centre boy did I regret walking there as I then became so dizzy and faint. Chris offered to go and get the car, but I decided to walk back slowly.
January 16th I hadn't been out of the house in what felt like forever so I promised the kids we would take them to the Frankston forshore to see the fireworks and carnival that was on. All day I felt really strange and couldn't get comfortable no matter where I sat or layed which was annoying, but I thought that it was obviously another multiple pregnancy thing so didn't take too much notice of it.
15:30 came and I thought that I had better get ready and put my bathers on as it was a hot night so thought whilst we're at the beach we could all go for a swim, but two little people inside of me had another idea beacause as soon as I went to sit down on the toilet there was a huge GUUUUUSH everywhere. At first I thought that I had wet myself and became a little embarrased that I was just a step away from the toilet, but still didn't make it. Then another and another and another gush came and thats when I realised that nooo I hadn't wet myself....I was in LABOUR and thats when I called out for Chris or Amelia. Amelia came rushing in took one look at me and screamed at me "MUMMY YOUR IN LABOUR" then ran out to fetch Chris who at first thought that I was playing a joke on him as him and the kids were playing hide-and-seek so he thought that I was only saying I was in labour to get him to comeout of where is was hiding. Soon enough though he came and saw that our bathroom floor was covered in liquid and I was indeed not kidding.
We rang the Hospital to ask their advice, Chris's parents who were the ones we had asked to have the kids when it came time to have our twinnies....and called my Mum to ask if she could meet us at the Hospital because I has asked her to be there with us as it meant a lot to have my Mum there as she had been there with my older children.
The Hospital was so busy with emergencies coming in and needing surgery that I had to wait 12hours in pain and major discomfort with contraction after contraction, but luckily enough I had Chris and Mum there to help me through it all which was amazing. I couldn't possibly ever thank my Mum and my wonderful finace for all the support they gave me through out the entire journy of the pregnany, but especially the labour. Even though I was in a great deal of pain I still kept looking at Mum and Chris and seeing how exhausted they both looked, but yet they still carryed on and kept telling me I was doing well, rubbing my back and allowing me to use to their hands during contractions.
(Chris wearing his scrubs) We actually kept these, but shhhh beacause we weren't actually supposed to.
(down stairs....I was shacking soooo much from the spinal block)
Kaiden Noah born 17.01.2010 at 3am
All of a sudden we heard a little lambs cry which sounded so gorgeous and sweet.
Hollie Ava born 17.01.2010 at 3:01am
I don't think she was ready to come out yet. Held onto everything she could get a hold of when they pulled her out. The Doctors and Nurses joked that she will be a nurse when she is older because of holding onto all the scissors and tools.
Kaiden Noah 5pound 2ounces (Apple)
Hollie Ava 6pound 2ounes (Banana)
In the end I was wrong about who was Apple and who was Banana because the laid back Apple turned out to be a BOY and very active Banana was a GIRL.
